Author Archive for daniel buckley

18
Sep
11

Not Right

I don’t write much more. I had a better way to express my feelings… sadly, because of my own immature actions, I have lost that. I always had a feeling that things I saw as a child would affect my relationship with woman. I never knew they would affect them this much. I’ve turned into something I hated. Everything I’m worth as a person, is completely erased because of my cowardly actions in the heat of the moment. Somebody gave themselves to me wholeheartedly, but that was not enough. My valid insecurities as a child have turned into scary delusional insecurities as a man. I’m uncomfortable even calling myself a man because of them. When my Tata passed away, he told me that I was a man, and I always held on to that. That has been taken away by myself. I’m still an insecure, troubled little boy, with desires that are unrealistic and just plain stupid. Luz was just that… She was the light in an otherwise dark place, that is my heart. She was the beauty that, evened out all the ugly inside of me. She gave me things that she wouldn’t even understand she gave me. She showed me that it was okay to give someone your all, and be willing to drop it all to save that person from just one tear drop. That is why this is so troubling, because even after all that she showed me, I still couldn’t control. I love her like I’ve never loved before, and I know she loves me the same. Thank you Lucie. You are the perfection, that gives me hope for myself. I love you.

20
Jul
09

Tokyo Rose=Iva Ikuko Toguri

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I love reading about interesting stories, about Americans. Actually I enjoy interesting stories about people in general. From now on every now, and then I will be sharing some of the stuff I read. Who knows? Maybe somebody out there will enjoy it.

A few months back I was listening to George Takei, (yes the gay guy who played Sulu on Star Trek) on the Adam Carolla Podcast, and he brought up the story of Tokyo Rose. Though I was very interested at the time, I forgot the specifics of the story, but just remembered it being very interesting. I don’t want to write a long explanation of it, because I don’t think I can really do the story justice. Tokyo Rose, real name Iva Ikuko Toguri, was an American women, of Japanese decent who became stuck in Japan after Pearl Harbor.  After refusing to renounce her United States Citizenship, she was denied a war ration card. She was forced to broadcast propaganda. She made very little money for this, but still used, some to smuggle food to American POW’s.  After Japan’s surrender, Iva Ikuko Toguri was offered $2000.00 to do an interview, as Tokyo Rose, with reporters Harry T. Brundidge, and Clark Lee. Still wishing to return to America, but lacking the money to do so, she did the interview hoping to get home. Instead she was arrested, on over 8 acts of treason. She spent a year in jail, but was released when no evidence of her committing treason was found. Eventually the reporters that, interviewed her and supposedly got the signed confession, were investigated for witness tampering. I think this is a story of a women, who should be considered a true American heroine, but was falsely accused, and wrongfully imprisoned, because of some overzealous reporters, and her wanting to go home. Here are a couple links to much better explanations. I think they are worth the read. Keep in mind the type of feel America had at the time. Japanese American citizens were force into internment camps, and we were at war, which I think tends to make people overly paranoid, and quick to judge.

FBI Famous Cases

Washington Post Story

11
Jul
09

Be Original… Or Just Get A Bunch Of Tattoos!!!!

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When I was a little kid I always wanted a tattoo… I loved Lowrider Magazine, and I just loved the Lowrider culture as a whole.  I always thought tattoos were a huge part of that culture. Not a colorful bugs bunny, or Japanese Kanji, but prison tattoos. Just dark ink that seemed to make a person intimidating, and represented something.  While what these tattoos represented weren’t always good things, they meant something, and they were not accepted in “mainstream” society. My point is, people who had tattoos were doing it to be different, and to represent. Other people with tattoos were military, and also the rebellious type.  The latter wanting tattoos to show the control they had over their own body, and to display their utter lack of respect for conformity.  If they’re tax attorney was tatted up they probably wouldn’t have wanted have viewed tats in the same way.  A large portion of today’s youth is getting tatted for a completely different reason.  Instead of getting inked to stand out, they are getting tatted to fit in, never REALLY think about the permanence of a tattoo.  Before tattoos on TV were rare. Dennis Rodman actually stood out in Jordan’s NBA. Today I think it might be a requirement to get in the League.  Kids are getting sleeves because that is what Lil Wayne is doing.  These same kids are treating these very basic, and unoriginal tattoos as something that separates their individuality.  This just isn’t the case anymore.  How many star’s do we have to see on people before it becomes obviously unoriginal? I used to see people with their lip pierced, and a few tats, and I thought, “Damn must be a bad ass” or ” I wonder what his parents did to him.”  Now I don’t really think anything.  It is just too common.  Everybody has one. At what point is this considered “trend?”  I think we are already at that point. We are in the midst of a trend.  What do all trends do? They fade away.  Unlike parachute pants, or porno star mustaches, tattoos cannot be gotten rid of easily, and 100%.  I think this large scale tattooing is a fad, that will be a regrettable one.  Is this lowering the ceiling of job potential for our youth, or is business America, just going to have to accept ink?  The question is always asked, and ignored. What do you think, you’ll think about your tattoo when you are older? I’m all about living in the moment, but not at the expense of the embarrassing moments I’ll live in the future.  Before I get attacked because of my thoughts,(I realize this isn’t popular belief by my peers) I don’t think this applys to everybody.  I know super creative people, who actually know the history, and art of tattooing. That is something that is lacking at a time when, getting inked is at it’s highest popularity.  I still have respect for the tattoos I wanted as a kid.  Will I get one now? Almost certaintly not. I told my cousin there would only be one way I would get tatted, and that is if Mister Cartoon himself gave it to me.  Sorry you just can’t pass up that kind of genius.  I have a million more thoughts on this but I don’t really want to get that far into it.  I don’t want to get into the tramp stamp, or the porn star tattoo epidemic all together lol…  All I’m saying is two things. Don’t lie to yourself by thinking you are being an individual by fitting in with everybody else. Number two, REALLY think about it before you get a tattoo. Consider the future a little, and if what you are getting is meaningful.  If I would have gotten a tattoo at age 15 like I wanted, I would have my mother’s maiden name, and a Ruff Ryder Symbol on my back.  Hind sight is always 20-20.

08
Jul
09

Vegas

Well I got back from Vegas last night. It was quite honestly one the top three funnest times I’ve had. What is it about Vegas that just makes everything easier. It’s so much easier to not care about normal life stuff. Approaching a girl becomes 50 times easier, and you basically lose all your inhibitions… Well not all of them hopefully. I’ll have more about Vegas later. Right now Is sleepy time. I need a lot of rest.

29
Jun
09

Racism?

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You, know it really sucks that racism is still an issue. I feel like a lot of it is bull shit pussy racism. Don’t get me wrong, I know there are real mean, racist people out there. I know that there are white supremacists, and groups that attack a specific race out there, but for the most part I think the word “racist” is being used for too many people. I think its B.S. that opinions aren’t able to be stated, because of racial sensitivity. Screw that noise. It’s so funny to me, that people are so damn scared to say anything about anybody. I should have said “white” people are scared to say anything. It’s that whole white guilt thing, that handicaps them in an argument. I’m half white, and half Mexican. I’ll go off on anybody. I tell people I know the same stuff. Racial stereotypes for instance… It’s not the white man’s fault that a higher percentage, of Mexicans work in landscaping. Go outside and tell me that stereotype isn’t at least kind of true. Stop being so fucking sensitive to shit like that.  A black dude could just go off on a white guy, calling him cracker, and white boy, hick etc.  Meanwhile,  Skylar has no idea how to describe the guy, that he saw break into his house. What is the safe word? I think if you can call me “white” I can call you “black.”  It’s not racist, I mean that’s the color of your skin, and it’s the easiest way to say it. Let’s all get over this sensitivity stuff, and learn how to judge intent, instead of just jumping to conclusions because of a word. I feel so comfortable with my position because, I don’t care what a person looks like (unless it’s a date) all I care about is who they are. Racial sensitivity just complicates things in my mind. I realize I haven’t had to suffer too much racism. I live in an area with mostly Mexicans and some Anglos.(just wanted to use that word) I still feel that I have a grasp of the severity of it, and I think the only way to just move on, is not care. I mean this reverse discrimination case, involving the firefighters sounds completely ridiculous to me. People pass tests. People fail them. It’s not the Whitey McFirefighters fault that, none of the black, and only one Latino passed the promotion test. I want the person that passed the test to get a promotion, not the guy, that just kept drawing shapes on his bubble exam. I don’t care if the guy who gets the promotion is pink, with purple polka dots on his forehead. Pass the test, get the promotion. Simple as that. If you want to say the test is culturally bias, it better be pretty obvious. The questions better be something, about getting sun burned, or the music of John Tesh.(everybody should fail that haha) I’m in no way calling Supreme Court Nominee Sonia Sotomayor a reverse racist like some nuts out there, but I am troubled with her ruling on this case. I just don’t know how you could see it any other way. You don’t possibly become the first female Hispanic, Supreme Court Judge, without having some sense.(you can just become president) ZZZINNNNNGGG!!! HAHA I’ll link to the story if you don’t already know.  So People PLEASE!!! STOP BEING SUCH A PUSSY ABOUT RACISM! GET OVER IT, AND PROVE PEOPLE WRONG! If your Mexican, trying being an interior designer, instead of a landscaper, or maid at a motel (my mom’s profession) Hey you White guys, why don’t you rob a liquor store or two, before you launder money, and commit insider trading. Asians….ummmm….Learn how to drive!!!!!

Firefighter Story

Family guy Asian driving joke

28
Jun
09

R.I.P. Michael Jackson

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August 28, 1958-June 25, 2009

Okay I went camping this weekend, and had some time to just relax, shoot guns, drink beer, socialize, and think. The last three things put together, brought up an interesting subject. Michael Jackson. Everybody was talking about his passing, as if it was a close relative, or friend that had passed. Don’t get me wrong, when I heard he had passed, I was somewhat… I don’t know if I would say sad, but I was bummed. Not just because it was Michael Jackson, but just hearing about somebody recognizable dying at such an early age is sad.  Well the main conversation around the campfire was just, pure hurt, and sadness. I felt like I might be a little heartless, because I just didn’t see it that way. After awhile I started thinking, its always weird when an icon dies. We all have some kind of attachment to to that person.  Maybe it’s just that it connects to whatever was going on in your life, but I think people do feel like they are losing somebody close to them. The one thing I think about M.Jack, is that you can’t just blindly speculate, and judge him for what he has been accused of.  I’m not a defender of that type of stuff, but he’s never been convicted. People want to say it’s because he paid off the families. That’s fine, but if Michael Jackson touches my kid, I’m not taking any kind of money to let it go. I don’t think a parent could just do that. For that reason alone, it’s hard to believe for me. It’s easy to just say, ” Well why was he sleeping with a ten year old?” You can guarantee that you wouldn’t do that, and that alone is sick. Well the thing you don’t understand is, Michael Jackson didn’t grow up like you. He was physically, and mentally abused.  He has been in the lime light almost his whole life, and never had an inch of room to just be a kid. His mind never went through the natural process, a mind goes through from being a child, to adolescence, to being an adult. He never had a childhood, that is why he was trying to recreate that when he became older.  All that, and being treated like he is was a monster by the media. I’m sure the only time he really felt comfortable, and confident was on stage. Too many people make too many assumptions, just to hear their own voice weigh in on something. Screw that noise. Well regardless, there is no argument. He was the king of pop, and a very interesting, and complex figure.  R.I.P. Michael Jackson

19
Jun
09

WALE & 9TH WONDER “BACK TO THE FEATURE”

U know this blog was supposed to be exclusively for my thoughts. I didn’t want to post other people’s opinions, and music etc. but man, I just want everybody to hear this. Great for hip hop, and don’t be so stubborn. Give it a listen. Courtesy of Nahright. My favorite website for new music, that isn’t just top 40 and cookie cutter.

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